Thank God its over! Sunday School is out and I’m leaving for good. New horizons await and I can’t wait to go there. When will I ever meet my Lisha? I’ve prayed so hard and waited so long, yet no reply seems to be in sight. I still consider patience as a great virtue yet my impulsive nature seems to get the best of me at times. For now, I cherish my moments of solitude. It’s the least that I can do.
Its official: I’m really falling for the Sunday School Teacher…HARD. Days have never been the same without getting “the look” from her. I just can’t help it, she’s simply irresistible. When will I ever go out with her? We’ll see…
It’s just another uneventful day here in this state called “reality”. Yet I still look forward to going to work later this evening. I don’t know why. Is it because of the lovely gal that constantly reminds me of my ex-girlfriend? Or is it the SST that stirs mixed emotions…due to the fact that she also reminds me of my ol’ Chinese Angel & Dancing Princess? Or is it because I’m just so dedicated to my work? Only heaven knows…
The Day You Said Goodnight
Take me as you are
Push me off the road
The sadness I need this time to be with you
I’m freezing in the sun
I’m burning in the rain
The silence I’m screaming
Calling out your name
And I do
Reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you lose the side of your circles
That’s what I’ll do if we say goodbye
To be is all I got to be
And all that I see
And all that I need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight
The calmness your face
That I see through the night
The warmth of your light is pressing unto us
You didn’t ask me why
I never would have known
Oblivion is falling down
And I do
Reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you lose the side of your circles
That’s what I’ll do if we say goodbye
To be is all I got to be
And all that I see
And all that I need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight
If you could only know me
Like your prayers at night
Then everything between you and me
will be alright
To be is all I got to be
And all that I see
And all that I need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight
She’s already taken
She’s already taken
She’s already taken me
She’s already taken
She’s already taken me
The day you said goodnight
Here I am againTrying to take my chanceI'm longing for your touchLonging for your warm embraceOh how I miss you baby
Here I am againTrying to say the wordsI failed to say beforeI wish I've said it all to youOh how I love you baby
REFRAIN:You're the only oneWho can make my life completeOh baby your love is all I needYou're the only oneWho can bring a smile to meThe only one that I wanna be with
Here I am againWaitin' for the timeWhen you will say the wordsThat made us to become oneOh how, I long for your love
(Instrumental)
You're the only oneWho can bring a smile to meThe only one that I wanna be with
Here I am againTrying to say the wordsI failed to say beforeOh how I love you so
"In what distant deeps or skies burns the fire of thine eyes
On what wings dare he aspire, what the hand dare sieze the fire"
-`Tyger, Tyger’, William Blake
Have you got a problem to solve? Try sleeping on it.
Our brains appear to continue working on problems even after we have gone to sleep. In one study, a group of people was allowed to sleep for eight hours before tackling a problem that had been described to them. Upon returning to the problem, the sleepers were almost three times as likely as the non-sleepers to find a solution to the problem.
Contigo aprendi que exista nuevas y mejores
emociones
Contigo aprendi a conocer un mundo nuevo de ilusiones
Aprendi que la semana tiene mas de siete dias
Hacer majores mis contadas alegrias
Y hacer dichoso lo contigo aprendi
Contigo aprendi a ver la luz del otro lado de la luna
Contigo aprendi que tu presencia no la
cambio por ninguna.
Yo aprendi que puede un beso ser mas
dulce y mas profundo
Y que puede irme mañana mismo de este mundo
Las cosas buenas ya contigo las vivi
Y contigo aprendi yo naci el dia te conoci
El dia que me quieras
La rosa que engalana
Se vestira de fiesta
con su major color
Al viento las campañas
diran que ya eres mia
Y loca las fontañas
se cantaran su amor
La noche que me
quieras desde el azul del cielo.
Las estrellas celosas
nos miran pasar
Y un rayo misterioso
hara nido en tu pelo
Luciernaga curiosa
que vera eres tu mi consuelo
People
are often unreasonable,
Illogical, and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind,
People may accuse you of selfish,
ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are
successful,
You will win some false friends
and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
People may cheat
you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building,
Someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find
serenity and happiness,
They may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do
today,
People will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the
best you have,
And it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you’ve
got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis,
It is between you and God;
It never was between you and
them anyway.
Anyway,
this is one of those opportunities when I can pour my heart out to you without
any interruptions. As you can see, I’m
going through a very turbulent phase right now. A lot of things are going through my mind and it will take some time
before I can sort everything out. And in
the middle of it all, there’s ******. Well, you can say that I’ve made her my proto-center of the universe for
these past few days and it was great! And I have you to thank for that. You sure pointed me in the right
direction. You might say that I’ve been
smitten by the love bug. It opened a
whole new horizon for me. I never knew
that she would open that door within me that I never thought would ever be
opened again. She was truly God-sent,
since she came in a time that I needed a lot of boosting up and radical changes
are happening in my life. She’s simply
an angel, and I feel so unworthy to be with such a heavenly creature. As Nyoy
Volante sang she’s ”every wish, every dream, every prayer come true. She’s simply one of a kind. She’s the one who never fails to brighten my
day. She’s my princess in every fairy
tale.” In short, I like her. I really really really really really like
her.
Lately,
I’ve realized the value of your advice. “Control your feelings for her. Take it slow.” So I did. I took a step back and I’ve discovered that
she has some quirks that I don’t really like. I know what you’re thinking; don’t judge the book by its cover. Don’t get me wrong. I have nothing against the cover. I just didn’t have the chance to get under
it. ; ). But seriously, she’s a nice gal and I’m willing to get to know her
more. It’s only that the old Adam in me
is acting up again. Fits of jealousy and
an over-active imagination can get the best of me at times. And I don’t want her to go through hell
again. A loving person like her deserves
the best guy she can possibly get. Unfortunately, that guy is not me (as of the moment). I have a lot to improve on myself if I am to
be deemed worthy of her attention, respect and ultimately, her love. I need a major overhaul, and its gonna take a
while. I need to be at peace with myself
first so that I can be capable of genuine love. It is with great hesitation that I’ve decided to take this step back
from ******, but I know that it will do us a lot of good. Again, I thank you for that advice. All I can do now is just be a friend who is
there for her no matter what happens. Nothing more, nothing less.
If I had
only one wish right now, it would be a big hug from her. Why? Hugs are great for healing the heart. Quoting one of my college mentors: ”Hugs are practically perfect. They have low energy consumption, and have a
high-energy yield, with no monthly payments. Hugs are non-fattening, inflation proof. They use no pesticides and have no artificial preservatives. They are non-taxable, non-polluting and, of
course, are fully returnable”.
